9:49 AM 12/8/2004 Monday I weighed 184 lbs. I had a salad and ate light. Yesterday I weighed 180. I pigged out at a sushi party and finished dinner with ice cream. Today I weigh 184 again. I laughed at myself and thought I couldn't stand to diet more than 12 hours. Fortunately, after Julia's treatment this morning, I can cancel that thought and replace it with, "I eat right, and perfectly for my own health and fitness." The mysteries of appetite and eating patterns fascinate and baffle the world's scientists and doctors. I shall just trust in the fact that my body is the product of millions of years of evolution, that the all-loving, all-giving Spirit lives within it, and it knows exactly what to do. I noticed when I was strictly dieting and exercising, when I was pushing down to 150 lbs., that I was constantly hungry. Exercise raised my hormone levels, too. Fitness may have as its corollaries a high appetite and a high libido. If we intend to live a long life, is it destined to be a long, hungry, horny life? I believe there must be a middle ground. I notice that very old people don't tend to be what we currently call fit. I have noticed that people tend to look younger when they are in love than then they are not. I've heard that married men live longer than single men, although they tend to be survived by their lovers. Perhaps love is the key to living a long, healthy life. It's time to open my mind to receive new information on this subject. I know all the information I need is available to me when I need it.
9:36 AM 12/8/2004 Margaret and I recently visited Chicago. While the class we were taking was interesting, and the restaurants and stores were nice, we both had the distinct impression that we were still in San Francisco. I shared this feeling with a colleague this morning, and he said he felt the same way when he visited Boston. When we went to Tijuana many years ago, I remember that I felt like I was still in San Jose. There is only one City. We just replicate it wherever we are.